It’s never going to be easy. But you’re worth it, so I’m in it. We’ll make this work.
It seriously sucks when Carlos’ phone gets disconnected. With his internet cut off, texting and calling eachother is the only way we can talk..
I miss him :(
I woke up at like, 5am. I’m so used to sleeping and waking up early now.

As hard as this actually was, I know it’d be Carlos. Since there’s no time limit whatsoever, I’d stay on the phone until I die, making sure my last breathe was used to reassure him that everything’s going to be okay. First thing I’d tell him is that I love him, since I’m not really so sure when I’d die. I want that to be the first thing to come out of my mouth. I’d let him know how special he is to me, how happy he makes me, and how every single second spent talking to him means more to me than an hour spent doing anything else. I’d tell him that I don’t regret anything we’ve done together, and that I wouldn’t trade any of it even if it meant me staying alive. I’d make sure that he knows how amazing he is. That he’d be able to be happy with someone else, because any girl would be truly lucky to have a guy like him. I’d make sure that he knows how talented and smart he is. I’d make sure that he knows he’s wonderful and beautiful in every possible way. I’m going to try my best to reassure him that everything’s going to be okay, that he’ll be fine, and I’d also make sure that he knows I won’t really be gone, that I’d always be looking after him. And as soon as I can tell that I’m dying right there, I’d tell him one more time that I love him.
He’s so so cute too c:
I honestly just want to grab him from the screen and hug him like there’s no tomorrow.


